Friday, October 30, 2009

Glowing Eyes

One early morning when I was 8, I got up and ready for school. As usual, I grabbed my trusty red flashlight while Daddy buttoned my coat and said good-bye. “Be careful and watch out for snakes.” he’d always say.

I was nervous that morning. I felt a little frightened of walking out of the holler in the pitch black darkness by myself. There were no fancy street lights in a holler. I walked slowly across the damp plank near our barn. I always loved waking the minnows and crawdads with my flashlight. I rarely saw them in the bustling creek but I searched from them anyway, as I dreaded facing the monster tree limbs of the wooded path out of the holler. Suddenly my foot slipped from the plank. My red shoe was completely soaked from the creek. Great. Now my feet would get cold!


I started down the dark wooden path as I heard my shoe squish every time I stepped on it. I began to hum some songs from the Muppet Show to keep me company from the dark.


It’s time to play the music. It’s time to light the lights. It’s time to meet the Muppets on the Muppet Show tonight!


I hummed the words I didn’t know.


“It’s time to get things started on the most...hmmm...tional, inspirational, celebrational, Muppetational -This is what we call the Muppet Show!” 

The more I sang, the more I recalled funny instances from the show. For a moment I was distracted, avoiding the darkness around me, then my flashlight started to dim. Oh no! The batteries are dying again. I shook and shook as the batteries rolled around inside the flashlight. For a moment the light went completely out.  There I stood frightened in the pitch black shivering nervously.  I shook the flashlight hard again but nothing happened.  I slung it and shook it again and the light came back on brightly. Yah! The batteries were new again. I started skipping down my path and hoped my journey would eventually end. It always took forever.


I finally came to where the path sloped down the hill. I had another creek to pass. It was near a place where someone had thrown their garbage away years ago on the hillside. Bottles and cans had settled with the growth of the weeds on the side of the hill. Suddenly I heard a rustling coming from the weeds. What was that noise? I stopped for a second to look around but I didn’t see anything. The weeds rustled again.  Oh my gosh, I wondered what it could be.  I hope not a snake.


I started on my path again. I whipped my flashlight across the creek to see the other side. My heart almost stopped. On the hillside across the creek, two bright glowing eyes appeared by the tree.  Snakes don't have eyes as big as these seemed to be. I couldn’t see a body, just the glowing evil eyes.


In those short moments, I stared and the eyes stared back at me.


“Oh my gosh! It’s a monster. It has to be.”


I nearly dropped my flashlight. I screamed but the eyes never moved. I refused to cross to the other side with those eyes over there.


“I am not going near those eyes.”



I screamed again and still the eyes never moved.  They stared at me with an evil glaze.  Suddenly the fear got the best of me and I began to run. My heart pounded and pounded in my chest.


“I want my Daddy. I want my Mommy.”


I felt so frightened. I suddenly realized I was going backwards towards home. I didn’t care. I was not going out of the holler with those evil eyes staring at me. On and on I ran, crying all the way.


I finally made it back home but I knew I would be in trouble for missing school. Daddy scolded me naturally. “There ain’t nothing to be scared about. You just wanted to get out of school.”


For years I think he thought I made up the story of the glowing eyes but they were real to me. So real that sometimes when I close my eyes, I can still see them glowing at me today.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Ugh….Another Year Already?

Happy Birthday to Me…. Happy Birthday to Me…..
Happy Birthday to Me…la..la..la!

In the past my birthdays generally kind of sucked. I rarely celebrated, other than with cake and stuff. Yet somehow this year feels different. It’s been almost a year since I’ve been alone and I am ok with that. The struggles of the past are out the door and gone down the road somewhere. Lately I have felt better about me and have more confidence than I have ever had in my lifetime. But the negative voices of the past still pop up and try to make me feel guilty for feeling confident as if I am so selfish. How odd that it’s ok for others to take care of themselves but not for me.


I received my Mom’s birthday card the other day and the pain struck me. The card had only my Mom’s signature of course. I was reminded that I would never again see my Daddy’s signed name on my birthday or Christmas cards. The sadness came over me once more. I started recalling the loneliness and struggles from last year. For a moment, my happiness evaporated. Just as I was about to drift down that depressing daydream, it struck me. We say “Happy” birthday not “Sad” birthday. Would Daddy really want me mourning and relishing in the sadness? Of course not! Daddy always wanted me to be careful and though he didn’t express it a lot, I know he wanted me to be happy and have the best in life. I can still hear his voice just like it was every time I called, “Hello. How are ya?” LOL!


Though he is gone, I still communicate with him and my Heavenly Father for both are watching the road ahead of me. I feel so grateful for my mom and the family I do have. It’s the little things that we seem to overlook and disregard as nothing. Each time I want to cry, I remember how great God has blessed me.


Be grateful for the little things in life!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Worthless Things

Are you like me? I'm attracted and awe at what the celebrities are wearing and doing these days. Why is that they are so attractive and entertaining to us? Plus why is that they receive $10,000 gift bags, wear ridiculous priced clothing, and are exempt from serving time when they break the law? If it’s not the celebrities I am awing at, it’s the gruesome shocking news headlines that I can’t turn away from. I find myself wasting countless hours viewing and critiquing the world when I should be spending more quality time fixing my own life.


So it didn’t amaze me at all this morning when I read “Our Daily Bread”. It was as if God was speaking right at me for He knows my morning routine of surfing the news channels to see what is happening in the world. It was from Psalm 119:31, “Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things, and revive me in Your way.” It was a reminder for me to turn away from such things that I have no control over. It was a reminder to seek God’s beauty in the ugliest of the real world.


So many times I have found myself so angry about the values that are important to me now being destroyed in a society lost within its self; a society hungry for own self pleasure, freedom, and a materialism lifestyle. No longer can our children play freely in the street or even help a stranger out with loading his groceries into a car. Besides, has our children of today even heard of such things?

What happened along the way that caused such fear and such cruelty in our world? Where are we headed? IDK!  Oh, just in case you’ve forgotten, our children speak in acronyms now and can barely spell.


Yes, I could ponder and worry about the leadership of the government, the hunger and AIDS crisis in Africa, and would Kate and Jon Gosselin just disappear. Yet worrying and judging the world gets me no where. Instead, I turn my eyes away. Not to ignore the tragedies of the world but to let go. Whatever worldly issue shocks me, I let go and give it to God, for only He is BIG enough to handle the world. Believe it or not, He is still in control - just check your local weather channel and see our every changing climate in every state.


Ok…..so I’ve bored you enough for today. I know – I know – you’re going to go check out You Tube right now to go see that Lady Ga Ga video or something more entertaining, it’s ok, I understand. But regardless, in the future take some time to seek out God’s glory in ALL things and place your focus on Him for a moment. You will be amazed by His Peace.



Take Care & God Bless! 

Monday, October 19, 2009

Well, Howdy!!!

Hi!
Glad you could visit me out here in Internet Land.  Everyone in the world seems to have a boring blog these days so I thought I'd give it a try. I hope I don't bore anyone (or myself for that matter!). I just wanted to try this blogging thing out and see if anyone's interested in reading some of my thoughts.  :^)

Since this is new, I will keep it short and hopefully have better ideas for the next post.... (I hope).

Good News - I now show up in Lulu.com's search engine. Woo Hoo!  I finally published my first book last week and I am so proud to see my work out there.  How weird!  Check out my Lulu storefront and purchase or download my book {hint hint}:

BTW - Congrats to my cuz, Alonzo.  He will be in the Kentucky Book Fair this November in Frankfort, Kentucky.  He is such a celeb....! Lucky! Check out his blog and his book:

Well, Thanks for visiting...gotta go look like I have a life! :)
God Bless You...hope to see you next time!