Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Powerless

Feeling Powerless?
I had almost forgotten that feeling until recently. Lately I have been running around, happy go lucky, feeling so in control. Yet an incident occured and I panicked for a moment.  That old emotion of feeling so powerless and scared quickly came back. I had forgotten the three most important steps:
1.   Accepting that I am Powerless.
2.  Remembering that there is a God.
3.  Allow Him to handle the situation.

In the past, I gave my power away so easily to others because I felt worthless and unsure of how to take care of my needs plus guilt for even wanting to.  I gave my power away by:
      Not saying NO to someone when I needed to.
     Not setting boundaries or allowed others to change my mind about my boundaries.
    Not respecting God or myself enough by allowing others to stomp on my values and needs.

When my father passed away, it felt like a rug pulled from underneath my feet. We have no power over death. God is completely in control.

It is the same regarding others.  We have no power over them. We can give and give and give for eternity but the end result is the same - we have no Power over them.  They still have the choice of liking, loving, and respecting us or just Leaving us.  We can't MAKE someone do anything, even though punching them until they do it sounds good sometimes.  :)


Thankfully I realized that God is bigger than any situation or anyone. He will always take care of my needs as long as I allow Him to.  I do this by respecting Him first and not putting others first. He will never leave me. He will never Complain about what I have or haven't done or shame me.  He loves me.  He loves You, too.
Give God your Powerlessness.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Thriller Dance

Michael still lives (sort of)!  Of course I am a MJ fan. I was thrilled that I got to participate in the Thriller dance that was offered by NASA's JSC Gilrtuth center.  We practiced every Friday for the month of October. Unfortunately I got the flu the day before our last class but I managed to "zombie" through the dance.  You can barely see me.  I am dressed in a blue shirt with black pants with shiny shoes behind the tallest zombie there.  I was going for the dead MJ zombie look. I felt weak and messed up several times but at least I did it! YAH! Here are the results:




Me as "Zombie" MJ!


Hanging with the "kids" (Amanda and Nathan).... and "chillin" with Uncle Andy!